Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Ambush Attack

I went to an institution named after a saint with initials FX somewhere in a remote area at the South, sending a communication from our office inviting them to attend a meeting and participate in a competition we will be hosting. Our driver drove me to that place bringing with me a brown envelope which contains all communication letters. We do not know where the place is so we stopped when we saw a nearby neighborhood and asked for the location. The person told us to go straight ahead the hill, pointing with his hand the direction which we saw instantly. We followed the man’s direction and there we saw a castle-like infrastructure.

I entered a thorny garden going to a stair which I perceived has 20 steps before reaching the first floor. The interior was not attractive as it was seen outside. I was inside a gigantic nipa hut. All were made of wood, and I mean coco lumber, which was ordinary. Three of the inhabitants were squatting on the floor. ‘What kind of institution is this?’, I asked myself. I approached a middle-aged woman who was standing and asked to meet their supervisor. I was assisted going up and waited for at least 5 minutes in a sofa three meters away from the door of the supervisor which was elevated with a three stair-steps. A nearly 4-foot woman came out. I hardly distinguished her dress that time. I stood up to greet her subsequently handing the communication letter. We talked on the sofa I was seating. After a few exchange of words, I rolled my eyes around the place and noticed men watching us. They were inhabitants too I guess, which to me seemed to be militants. I felt terrified but pretended it did not affect me. My friend texted me that he will come to fetch me. I was not able to answer him back Few conversations with the supervisor and off I went out.

I went out from a concrete parking area like that of a five star hotel in our city. I was not with my driver anymore. I was searching for my black Honda Civic car when my friend appeared smiling at me. I never thought he would actually come to the place. He came over and greeted me. We entered the car and I started the engine. The road was not cemented and the way was dusty. I drove nearly a hundred meters away and a man his late 30s was running beside my car and pointing a gun on us. I stepped to speed-up the car. We escaped but after a few meters more another gunmen were waiting to shoot us. My heart’s racing, beating faster, and faster. I could hardly breathe. Then I freeze.


I temporarily escaped death… I woke up! Goodness! That was just a dream…

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Monday, September 29, 2008

Her Other December

For long She discreetly protected her December. Everybody loves to be in this state, bliss. Everybody anticipates it with fervent desire of celebrating. It’s abundant. The coolness of the breeze signifies that it is coming.

Unfortunately, on its way, the natural rain turned into storms. Many places flood resulting to people in low area to evacuate. Local government built evacuation sites for them to shelter for the moment. Her family moved too. Then the storm passed. Many people went home but found their houses destroyed. Some things were washed away while some stayed. Too much destruction happened. It’s no longer the house they lived. They cannot do anything to change the effects of the calamity but to repair the damage and live in and with it. So they did. It cost them time, money and effort to build the house they once lived. Slowly, they once again had a house, though it was not the same, at least they had found home.

December is yet to come. Though she wishes to have the same December again, the storm has affected her desire of anticipating. She realized that actuality is better than anticipation.

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Taihen...

Just finish working. Gotta go home now. But first, gotta eat my dinner with my officemate. Haay.. taihen...

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Friday, September 26, 2008

She's Dead... again

When will tormenting moments end? She's dead again. How can I continue my routine if she's gone. When will she be in life again? My heart is filled with worries and pains. My PC is dead! She was attacked by a virus, no a trojan, or was it a malware? Damn I even don't have the sense to know the name. I made a greater damage to her. huhuhu... I need technical help on this! Gotta accomplish loads of task. *grieving*

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A Night with Jed

It was 11:43 in the evening and I was outside Grand Regal Hotel waiting for a taxi with my friends going home. Why were we there? We watched Jed Madela's concert. It was a mini-concert organized by PAGCOR monthly and September is for Jed. The concert was in Casino's Pantawan Hall. That was the first time I entered the Casino, they too I guess. I came with my officemate who sponsored seven of us on that concert (thanks for the dinner too! :D )

We arrived nearly 30mins before the starting time which was 9:00. As usual, there was front act to entertain the audience while the main show hasn’t started yet. Fifteen minutes later and our other friends came. Few minutes more and the lights were dimmed. Jed Madela came out from the back portion of the hall singing Hercules' OST "I Can Go The Distance" originally sung by Michael Bolton as the opening salvo. Many screamed with excitement as his voice seemed to came out from the deepest Marianas Trench. He was awesome. It was followed by songs in his albums which were all revivals. Photo and video taking were not allowed (as advised when we entered Casino; stickers were placed on cellphone lenses and digital cameras were surrendered on the counter) but that time people could not stop but remove the sticker and enthusiastically took photos and videos while on their seats. There was none the Casino staffs did to stop them so I did too hehe. Unfortunately, my phone could not get a good capture because it was dark and we were far so I just recorded his singing.

Evergreen was sung. The melody and the voice filled with so much emotion. I sank in the song. My heart stopped a moment and I found myself teary-eyed. Why was I feeling this way? What was I thinking? I wanted to pretend that the reason was not the one I was trying to hide and escape but it was. My heart started to feel fear and pain again. There were flashes of the past. I tried to recover... then I was back to where I was, sitting in the concert and listening to the music. Many songs followed, still from his albums. We were still filled with amazement of his voice.

For the First Time was sung. And although the song was for sweethearts, I do not know why my heart wept. Is it because I could not fit in the song or is it because if only we got the courage to express what we feel, we could have been in the song. But this is no drama. I woke up and listened to the songs again.

He played two medleys, one was from his favorite and iconic singers Martin Nievera, Lani Misalucha, Gary Valenciano, Sharon Cuneta, and Regine Velasquez (did I miss something?) and that of his dad’s favorite collections: Great Pretender, Unchained Melody, One Way Ticket, etc, ended by Voltes V’s OST which very much pleased the audience. His popular revival song entitled The Past was also sung and everybody did not cease applauding.

The audience were given time to request and he sang a few lines. The concert ended with the song Climb Every Mountain.

We seated until the hall fills a little empty and off we went to the stage with some other fans of Jed and took photo with him. I seem to master taking photos myself. Take a peek. ;)

The ticket we bought included a free play on the Casino’s slot machines. Five of us, no six, and I was the only rose among the thorns, played while my friend went home early with her husband. I do not understand why some got addicted playing the slot machines while I and the rest of the gang find it boring and nonsense. Well we all have differences. When we all have no tokens left in our hands, I was relieved. Finally, I would be able to go home. At the end of the game I then realized why. The thrill and excitement of hearing and seeing many tokens dropping off the machines answered it. Yet, gambling is not my life, afraid to bet with no assurances.

It was 11:43 in the evening… already…

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

The End of the "Eleven Minutes"

I cannot remember the exact time I finished Eleven Minutes today but for sure it was past five, I mean afternoon past five. I was supposed to finish it last night after I sent a text message to the owner promising him to complete it by night so I will have his Valkyries the next day. Fifty pages left yet I found myself already asleep with the book on my chest. T’was two in the morning then. I could not comprehend anymore. I could not resist my body’s eagerness to sleep. So I did.

Twelve pages left but it was already one in the afternoon. I must get back to work. So excited to finish it, I immediately read it once the clock struck 5. The novel like all other Paolo's works was splendid! It touched my heart. This was a story of love, dream and purpose in life.



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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Somebody Loves My Blog

Thanks to my friend Chai for this very kind message.

And now, I want to say this also to my fellow bloggers.




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Just transcribing...

Take me down but take it easy.
Make me think but don't deceive me.
Torture me by taking your time...


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Monday, September 22, 2008

Maria's Diary

Everything tells me that i am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say "yes" to life?

The little experience of life I've had has taught me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion - and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever (as has happened often enough to me already) finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there's no point wasting my time looking after things that aren't mine; it's best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.
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Saturday, September 20, 2008

Always keep a tangible memory

No matter how painful an experience is, always keep a tangible memory. Years after, looking on the stuffs, you will laugh and realize how stupid and shallow you are those times. Standing in the present will let you see how you've grown wiser and tougher because of those past events.

Back to the years I have lived in happiness and pain, the stuffs I had those times were still with me. Looking at them made me laugh how I have been too childish, too stupid and too engrossed with my emotions. I was really young then. This time, I don't want to forget whatever I had and have. Everything must be captured. Everything must be saved. Everything must still be seen in the future. Keeping them will measure how far have I grown to be matured in the next years to come. Looking at them makes me feel lighter... better...

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