Best Unrevealed

Sometimes when we thought it's best to know everything around us, it is still far better that innocence prevails. Look at how little children live care-free. Pleasantry is always there. They don't have worries, insecurities, problems, anxieties, jealousy. They enjoy what is offered to them. And when we see them play, it also fills us joy.

When we try to escape from the things we don't want to hear or see, they make visible unexpectedly, accidentally, or coincidentally. Discovery is natural. And when we are faced with these circumstances, for as much as we want confrontation, we stop and keep them to ourselves. And yes, for as much as we want to breathe, our hearts are constricted and we are hurt, hurting illogically.

Then we realize we are not allowing happiness to enter our hearts. And we realize love that should be living in our hearts. Read more...

Counting Down Part 2

I barely have a couple of days to enjoy a vacation. Yipeeee! Will I enjoy it knowing that I have lots of responsibilities to do? Whew! I need to finish them, or at least work on it, on my last few busy days although I know this "busy" thing won't really get rid of me. I love it though, it makes me feel worthy :D Oh Well, I really should start doing things now. Read more...

Worried Again

My dog isn't well yet and I am totally worried. =( When I hold her she almost doesn't have strength to open her eyes. She is really ill. She is taking her medication for a week now and her fever is still there. Her cough returned. She is taken cared by my two nurse sisters yet she is still sick. I'll send her again to her doctor tomorrow to have her checked even if her schedule is still next Monday. I really hope she regains her strength. I really miss her. It pains me seeing her in this condition. =( Read more...

Wednesday is coming!!!

I suddenly felt nervous when I remembered the day I will be submitting my Graduate Studies requirements, the word "Wednesday" struck me. Yes, you read it right, Wednesday. What's with Wednesday anyway? You might ask. This might mark the difference I will soon face. The day is not related to my studies, however. A different path is anticipating me near this day. I felt like I am confined in this very small corner where I need to to crunch myself and hide a bit. Am I just confused or scared? I totally don't know. All I know is that a lot of emotions filled me. I am trying to reject any thoughts of fear, thoughts playing about future because it just scares me but somehow they are juggling over me. Whew! I have been wanting this so long but now, many circumstances and opportunities just came that I do not know if what I wanted was still the same. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful with what Life has bestowed on me. I am just in a state where I need to choose over staying and risking. Whatever it is, I just need to accept whatever fate I will face, if that is what planned for me. I just need another sign. I am crossing my fingers for it. =D Read more...

Wishi is Sick =(

It crushes my heart hearing and seeing my dog suffering from her illness. It pains me. Everytime I hear her cough and vomit, I can't stop but worry about her. She has been sick for a week now and just yesterday we sent her to clinic to have her checked. My sister told me, according to the doctor, that she is suffering a viral infection that is fatal. Upon hearing those words I really can't stop worrying. She had fever 39C and doesn't want to eat. We are spoon-feeding her so that somehow her stomach is filled. I am really worried about her coz she's getting thinner. ;-( If only I can do anything for her this time.. This really saddens me. Read more...

Counting the Days

It just dawned on me that few days are left before I step out and see a different world. Although I do not consider it long-term, at least the thought of having to see a new place and new faces excites me. It will be something that will register in my life. A lot of things I am anticipating and a lot of things to bring me surprises. And although there are still couple of important things I need to face before embarking on this journey, I am still hopeful that I can get through with them in a short span and find means and reasons to finally enjoy everything. Read more...

The Sign

I once asked for a sign if something I wanted is for me. And then I got this moment to ask for the last sign. It would be now or never. The first sign was a "go" and so I was happy that it would be given to me. But then a twist of fate arrived and I was caught off-guarded at that moment. In just a short span of time, it turned into a "no". Yet, I was still hopeful. I was waiting for another sign. I saw one, yet it was fading. Then I realized it was not meant for me at all. I then started teaching myself to let go of it for I knew I will never have it anymore. And yes, I did. I let it go.

If not for that sign, I won't be here happy and contented. Things really happened on purpose. We just have to believe that when some things stop for us, new things come for the better. Read more...

Waking up Late

I am now facing this problem of waking up late. I usually woke up six in the morning and do the chores but these past few days, I wake up 8 or 9. And when in the past I only get to sleep four hours, now, I sleep 8hours. This is not doing me good. Everytime I sleep more than 6 hours, it's making me weak and lazy the whole day. I think I should watch my eating habit and constant usage of computer. These might be the culprits. Read more...

Colorblind

Just a little post. My boyfriend (odd hehe) finally got his birthday present from me. I sent it two weeks ago as he is a little far from the country. I sent him in surprise a pink polo shirt. Upon claiming his package at the post office, he sent me message thanking me for the gift. But one thing he was sad about is that he didn't know what color his shirt was. I laughed and teased him that it's white. He's colorblind. Cute isn't it? hahaha. I bet not. He thought it was dirty white. I asked him to wear it so I can see it on cam as he said it fits him but he washed it immediately after arriving home. Oh well, I might take a look at his body as the alternative. Kidding! Read more...

Great Heart-pumping Adventure

I felt the sudden rush of blood when my heart beat faster as I slide the 40-meter waterslide of Maxima in Penaplata, Samal. One thing that hit me when I was about in the middle of the slide was the hope that the time stops or pauses so I can still hold my breath, relax and compose, and then scream again. Yet, I was in real time. I have no magic to to hold the time in my hand. I really don't know what to do but to just fervently hope that I fall in the water in a second's split so I could cast the fear I felt and end this craziness. It was like a slide of my life, a suicidal attempt. I even felt I won't be able to come up the water after I fell. Whew! I will never do that again! Once is enough to feel the thrill, I think.


After the water slide, we went up for the monkey bridge adventure. It was a 3-part bridge and at the end is a rappel going down. When I was still a spectator, I was confident that I can cross the bridge running in just a minute. At first steps I was doing and walking well. My grip was very tight so I can have my balance. But when I was in the middle of the first bridge, the men assisting me even jumped and ran across the bridge to scare me. I was like screaming the whole time! "Wait! Stop moving!!!", I screamed, with my knees trembling. They did this over and over until I finished crossing the three bridges. "Finally!", I said in a sigh as I reached the end point of the third bridge. My shoulders drooped and I felt my body was giving up. I was bathed in sweat. But it was a fulfillment crossing it. On a rappel, another thrill filled me. Trying to be strong, I hid my fear on a smile while gripping the rope as I was hanged. Going down, the man suddenly loosen the rope that I felt like I was about to hit the ground unconscious! Another scream. Whew! But I realized it felt good to be screaming all the time. lol

I have fear on heights but these I tried so I can test myself and conquer my fear. I am trying to feel what danger is. This also connotes giving in to risks in life. Well, I really had a wonderful experience today! One of the best. ;) But if I were to ask for a second and the same adventure, I will definitely not be sliding again. =D

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Great Night with Two Circles

I felt odd that I woke up so late today. Thanks to my friend who sent me SMS when it was almost 12nn. I was wondering why. I have not stressed myself too well yesterday. I even slept on my usual hours. Could it be because I have no obligation today? Or should I blame it to my excessive eating last night? Ah yes, it might be. I was like pigging out.

At 9:40PM, I went out and had dinner with my friends after the day's responsibilities. And I mean real meal, with rice. Then after a few minutes, I had to leave them to meet another group for our scheduled bonding moment. And that meant I had to fill my stomach again.

I had a wonderful night with the Team. I was the only rose among the thorns, so to speak, but we had a great time. We were on Italian and Mexican food mode. I was always craving for pizza, I don't know why. One of them even told me he didn't think I can eat well. I told him, "My stomach is expandable". He laughed. Indeed, I was amazed I was the only one eating left, they got full easily.

My friends came over and stayed at the other table. I joined their group after the Team bonding.

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A New Chapter

It's been quite a long time since I have opened and read my favorite book. And now I shall continue reading a new chapter of it.

The last chapters were filled with intensity, expectations and frustrations. But beyond all these, the character has surpassed them in his life's journey. Lessons were taught and learned. Life is indeed a constant education, a wisdom-seeking experience.

A new chapter brings forth a new life. A rebirth of one's soul. And new moments worth anticipating for.

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Reliving my Blog

After four months, this blog has its post again. This, after I accidentally hit my bookmark on my favorite browser, read my ancient posts and some comments from my good friend, Thea. I barely recognized my way of writing. "Did I write this?", I asked her. And so I missed writing. Thus, this post.

It's 3:36AM on my clock now and it's odd that after a day's affair, sleep has not struck me. Thinking of what nice post I write, nothing filled my rusty brain. Did I lose the zest or am I just preoccupied with other things? I would want to rummage this reservoir of information and emotions of mine so I can write again the way I write before but I think I need a few moment to do so. A few minutes or a few hours perhaps? Oh well, I need not strain my energy on this now. I have lots of time do it.

Ah yes. I am currently with my friends in a place we never planned we would have stayed. Didn't work. Didn't go home. Didn't sleep. What's in store for me in the next few hours? Definitely it won't be a productive day. phew! And I'm meeting Sunrise in a few hours. Yet, I am glad that we were together again for more than a year. Glad too that I have filled again my cabin. This is a fulfillment somehow.

Welcome back to blogging beb! ;)

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15 Signs You're Meant to be Together

I have no intention of posting something like this but I find it interesting so I thought of sharing it to you.

Sometimes we wonder if we will end up together with our significant other in the future. And this is always a paranoia for those with age near to marrying. So why don't we take a look at these factors or signs that may shed light to our minds and hearts. Here are the 15 signs from Yahoo! that will tell us if we are on the right track. Enjoy reading! Dating Tips: 15 Signs You're Meant to be Together Read more...

How far would you go for the one you love?

A teary-eyed Korean video clip. For the English lyrics of this song, click here.


"BECAUSE I'M A GIRL" by: Kiss
Version English

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(REFRAIN)

(CHORUS)

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

(CHORUS) [2x]

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The Gift I Have

A friend once gave me one variety of a tree some 5 years ago (or maybe 7, I forgot). It was still a plant when it was given. I remembered I was still in my college years those times. It was something I never gave much attention to or taken cared much as I was an ideal but typical student, concerned of getting a higher mark to maintain my academic privilege. Years gone by and I hardly noticed that the plant turned into a tree and was growing healthier and bigger, even without me taking care of it. Nature really has its way of everything. I was amazed. Soon I tried nursing it by my own hands. It did grew well.

This tree is an inspiration. It gives me joy. Everyday I look forward to seeing it, wanting to see that it is healthy and fine. The anticipation is a vitamin that energizes me. That beyond these anxieties and troubles I have, I still have this wonderful gift making me feel I have conquered my fears and the world.

Nature has its give and take cycles, I know. Yet, this, the gift that was given to me even if cannot speak the language I am speaking, just the presence of it is a joy for me. They have said I must give back to Nature the nursing so I can take care of other things too because Nature brings back everything to dust. And they knew that this will bring me to grief. And yes, I am trying to let go of the nursing; bringing it back to Nature slowly.

I know that soon I can finally let Nature take care of it in full. The tree will have to meet day and night but all in accordance to Nature. It will grow bigger and sturdy but it will also have to return to the earth's crust. It may not be soon. But the Acacia Tree will, eventually.

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Last Chance

This song just keeps on popping out my mind and I unconsciously, constantly singing its few lines. I don't know either why it suddenly came on me. So I go online and search for the song title and its lyrics. And... EUREKA! Here it is! ;) Last Chance by Allure. You can view the video here.

LAST CHANCE
by Allure

This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do all I can do
To let you know that what I feel for you is real

This is the last chance for us
This is the moment that I just cannot let end
Before I know that theres a chance were more than friends

So dont let go, dont let go
Make it last all night
This is my last chance to make you mine

I kept my feelings so deep
I kept my dreams of you and me somewhere inside
Although I prayed that you would see it in my eyes

But this is my last chance to say
Whats in my heart before you stay out of my life
And then youll understand the way I feel inside

So hold me close cause it feels so right
This is my last chance to make it mine
Make this dream reality
So close and yet so far
Gotta find a way into your heart
Gotta speak my mind
Gotta open up to you this time
I cant let you slip away tonight
This is my last dance iwth you

This is my only chance to do all I can do
To let you know that what I feel for you is so real
So dont let go
Just make it last all night long
This is my last chance to make you mine, yeah
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Relaxing

Good thing I was able to relax with my friends for two days. The time was worthwhile. I felt the crust of the earth under my feet, the sunshine, the wind and most especially the waters. Wooh! I had a splash of my life! The vacation was a cheap thrill and very adventurous. I will always remember that time that which I cannot take back and return. It was odd for I think I may not be able to do that again. :( Read more...

Another Luxurious Collection

With my constant buzzy and busy days, time plays an important role. Time is Gold. It must never be put to waste. I learned so many lessons of spending my time to waste. Expecting that I can recover the lost moments, I never could. And I learned to value time... slowly though. ;)

I have three (3) Time Zones on my laptop, reminding me that I must not forget that I am working for three (3) countries and that each time is significant. I got cellphones to alarm and remind me that I have activities and events, tasks to do. Yet, what I do not have is a wristwatch that will tell me time conveniently.

I always think that if I own one, it must be of good quality, a trusted one. Panerai Watches caught my interest and started to browse about this watch. I say it is a Luxury Watch Brand - Panerai, an elegantly masculine-designed watch. Established since 1860, this watch has proven to be a quality-made and a must-have for men of ages. Do they also have counterparts for women?
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Heading off for Cheap Thrills!

The earth's crust has always been the best floor to walk on. I have hoped to do this months before I landed on a new job. I thought this will be deprived of me knowing that life ahead (thinking from the past) will keep much of my time. It is indeed, yes. I was deprived of sunshine, wind, water, and earth. And now it's time for me to spend myself with them. Yipee! I gotta go nature tripping with my friends soon!;) We will be wandering of a nearby province with our sneakers and backpacks. I missed the nature's bounty and I wish to spend my time with her soon. I am leaving! Read more...