Headache

I am constantly having headache these past few days and so I end up doing nothing in a day. Shall I blame it to excessive heat? exhaustion? intense emotions? or unceasing thinking? Maybe all. I still have lots to comply on my graduate school requirements in a crunch time and I am wondering if I can finish them all or just surrender. But the cons is that I need to spend (not to forget "wasting") another time and money to enroll on it again.

I am worrying a lot now and this somehow lowers my energy to face each day, when I should be looking up on it with vigor. I better stop thinking with many things so I can stay relaxed and keep away from possible illness. I should keep fit! Read more...

Counting Down Part 2

I barely have a couple of days to enjoy a vacation. Yipeeee! Will I enjoy it knowing that I have lots of responsibilities to do? Whew! I need to finish them, or at least work on it, on my last few busy days although I know this "busy" thing won't really get rid of me. I love it though, it makes me feel worthy :D Oh Well, I really should start doing things now. Read more...

Worried Again

My dog isn't well yet and I am totally worried. =( When I hold her she almost doesn't have strength to open her eyes. She is really ill. She is taking her medication for a week now and her fever is still there. Her cough returned. She is taken cared by my two nurse sisters yet she is still sick. I'll send her again to her doctor tomorrow to have her checked even if her schedule is still next Monday. I really hope she regains her strength. I really miss her. It pains me seeing her in this condition. =( Read more...

Wednesday is coming!!!

I suddenly felt nervous when I remembered the day I will be submitting my Graduate Studies requirements, the word "Wednesday" struck me. Yes, you read it right, Wednesday. What's with Wednesday anyway? You might ask. This might mark the difference I will soon face. The day is not related to my studies, however. A different path is anticipating me near this day. I felt like I am confined in this very small corner where I need to to crunch myself and hide a bit. Am I just confused or scared? I totally don't know. All I know is that a lot of emotions filled me. I am trying to reject any thoughts of fear, thoughts playing about future because it just scares me but somehow they are juggling over me. Whew! I have been wanting this so long but now, many circumstances and opportunities just came that I do not know if what I wanted was still the same. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful with what Life has bestowed on me. I am just in a state where I need to choose over staying and risking. Whatever it is, I just need to accept whatever fate I will face, if that is what planned for me. I just need another sign. I am crossing my fingers for it. =D Read more...

Regaining Strength

I'm happy and a bit relieved that my dog is now regaining her strength. She took her 4 shots of injections to boost her immune system last Saturday and yesterday she started her medication and vitamins. Although it was a bit pain on my wallet, it was erased when I saw her last night sneaked at the kitchen and nibbling on chicken bones. I was glad she was able to eat again. Whew! Though she still has her cough and slight fever, at least she now has the appetite. Hopefully she will get well soon. Read more...

Wishi is Sick =(

It crushes my heart hearing and seeing my dog suffering from her illness. It pains me. Everytime I hear her cough and vomit, I can't stop but worry about her. She has been sick for a week now and just yesterday we sent her to clinic to have her checked. My sister told me, according to the doctor, that she is suffering a viral infection that is fatal. Upon hearing those words I really can't stop worrying. She had fever 39C and doesn't want to eat. We are spoon-feeding her so that somehow her stomach is filled. I am really worried about her coz she's getting thinner. ;-( If only I can do anything for her this time.. This really saddens me. Read more...

Counting the Days

It just dawned on me that few days are left before I step out and see a different world. Although I do not consider it long-term, at least the thought of having to see a new place and new faces excites me. It will be something that will register in my life. A lot of things I am anticipating and a lot of things to bring me surprises. And although there are still couple of important things I need to face before embarking on this journey, I am still hopeful that I can get through with them in a short span and find means and reasons to finally enjoy everything. Read more...

The Sign

I once asked for a sign if something I wanted is for me. And then I got this moment to ask for the last sign. It would be now or never. The first sign was a "go" and so I was happy that it would be given to me. But then a twist of fate arrived and I was caught off-guarded at that moment. In just a short span of time, it turned into a "no". Yet, I was still hopeful. I was waiting for another sign. I saw one, yet it was fading. Then I realized it was not meant for me at all. I then started teaching myself to let go of it for I knew I will never have it anymore. And yes, I did. I let it go.

If not for that sign, I won't be here happy and contented. Things really happened on purpose. We just have to believe that when some things stop for us, new things come for the better. Read more...

Waking up Late

I am now facing this problem of waking up late. I usually woke up six in the morning and do the chores but these past few days, I wake up 8 or 9. And when in the past I only get to sleep four hours, now, I sleep 8hours. This is not doing me good. Everytime I sleep more than 6 hours, it's making me weak and lazy the whole day. I think I should watch my eating habit and constant usage of computer. These might be the culprits. Read more...

Colorblind

Just a little post. My boyfriend (odd hehe) finally got his birthday present from me. I sent it two weeks ago as he is a little far from the country. I sent him in surprise a pink polo shirt. Upon claiming his package at the post office, he sent me message thanking me for the gift. But one thing he was sad about is that he didn't know what color his shirt was. I laughed and teased him that it's white. He's colorblind. Cute isn't it? hahaha. I bet not. He thought it was dirty white. I asked him to wear it so I can see it on cam as he said it fits him but he washed it immediately after arriving home. Oh well, I might take a look at his body as the alternative. Kidding! Read more...

Great Heart-pumping Adventure

I felt the sudden rush of blood when my heart beat faster as I slide the 40-meter waterslide of Maxima in Penaplata, Samal. One thing that hit me when I was about in the middle of the slide was the hope that the time stops or pauses so I can still hold my breath, relax and compose, and then scream again. Yet, I was in real time. I have no magic to to hold the time in my hand. I really don't know what to do but to just fervently hope that I fall in the water in a second's split so I could cast the fear I felt and end this craziness. It was like a slide of my life, a suicidal attempt. I even felt I won't be able to come up the water after I fell. Whew! I will never do that again! Once is enough to feel the thrill, I think.


After the water slide, we went up for the monkey bridge adventure. It was a 3-part bridge and at the end is a rappel going down. When I was still a spectator, I was confident that I can cross the bridge running in just a minute. At first steps I was doing and walking well. My grip was very tight so I can have my balance. But when I was in the middle of the first bridge, the men assisting me even jumped and ran across the bridge to scare me. I was like screaming the whole time! "Wait! Stop moving!!!", I screamed, with my knees trembling. They did this over and over until I finished crossing the three bridges. "Finally!", I said in a sigh as I reached the end point of the third bridge. My shoulders drooped and I felt my body was giving up. I was bathed in sweat. But it was a fulfillment crossing it. On a rappel, another thrill filled me. Trying to be strong, I hid my fear on a smile while gripping the rope as I was hanged. Going down, the man suddenly loosen the rope that I felt like I was about to hit the ground unconscious! Another scream. Whew! But I realized it felt good to be screaming all the time. lol

I have fear on heights but these I tried so I can test myself and conquer my fear. I am trying to feel what danger is. This also connotes giving in to risks in life. Well, I really had a wonderful experience today! One of the best. ;) But if I were to ask for a second and the same adventure, I will definitely not be sliding again. =D

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Great Night with Two Circles

I felt odd that I woke up so late today. Thanks to my friend who sent me SMS when it was almost 12nn. I was wondering why. I have not stressed myself too well yesterday. I even slept on my usual hours. Could it be because I have no obligation today? Or should I blame it to my excessive eating last night? Ah yes, it might be. I was like pigging out.

At 9:40PM, I went out and had dinner with my friends after the day's responsibilities. And I mean real meal, with rice. Then after a few minutes, I had to leave them to meet another group for our scheduled bonding moment. And that meant I had to fill my stomach again.

I had a wonderful night with the Team. I was the only rose among the thorns, so to speak, but we had a great time. We were on Italian and Mexican food mode. I was always craving for pizza, I don't know why. One of them even told me he didn't think I can eat well. I told him, "My stomach is expandable". He laughed. Indeed, I was amazed I was the only one eating left, they got full easily.

My friends came over and stayed at the other table. I joined their group after the Team bonding.

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A New Chapter

It's been quite a long time since I have opened and read my favorite book. And now I shall continue reading a new chapter of it.

The last chapters were filled with intensity, expectations and frustrations. But beyond all these, the character has surpassed them in his life's journey. Lessons were taught and learned. Life is indeed a constant education, a wisdom-seeking experience.

A new chapter brings forth a new life. A rebirth of one's soul. And new moments worth anticipating for.

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Reliving my Blog

After four months, this blog has its post again. This, after I accidentally hit my bookmark on my favorite browser, read my ancient posts and some comments from my good friend, Thea. I barely recognized my way of writing. "Did I write this?", I asked her. And so I missed writing. Thus, this post.

It's 3:36AM on my clock now and it's odd that after a day's affair, sleep has not struck me. Thinking of what nice post I write, nothing filled my rusty brain. Did I lose the zest or am I just preoccupied with other things? I would want to rummage this reservoir of information and emotions of mine so I can write again the way I write before but I think I need a few moment to do so. A few minutes or a few hours perhaps? Oh well, I need not strain my energy on this now. I have lots of time do it.

Ah yes. I am currently with my friends in a place we never planned we would have stayed. Didn't work. Didn't go home. Didn't sleep. What's in store for me in the next few hours? Definitely it won't be a productive day. phew! And I'm meeting Sunrise in a few hours. Yet, I am glad that we were together again for more than a year. Glad too that I have filled again my cabin. This is a fulfillment somehow.

Welcome back to blogging beb! ;)

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