Memories

Memories flashing back… Well, this is what my friend texted me as soon as she woke up this morning. Memories… Hmmm.. they were flashing in me yesterday. There are those moments when I doubt its sincerity but they are more overshadowed by great happy memories (because my friends lift me up all the times). We always sit and talk over a cup of coffee. (We just had a stop last night at Tata Benito's)

My life’s getting ordinary each day but two things keep me holding each day. No, three. :D My November, December and January. *sigh! And everything will end and begin next year.

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Stabbed?

Hmmmm when this news broke out 5 minutes ago, I never felt even a pinch of emotions. Why? Because in the first place I never invested anything to such. I was just enjoying life's stupidity and childishness. Thank God I didn't bother laying away my emotions on something I knew won't go any farther. So when my close friend called me breaking the news, I just laughed and said nothing, except for the thank you I uttered to her.

In the end, I was constantly laughing how everything went out that way and how everything had gone far. You see, life is just a game. May the best man wins! hehe At least it was not yet too late before I got warned. Yet I never felt being stabbed because I already guarded myself from the time it all started.

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Why Am I So Distracted?

And the deliberation started and ended tonight...

I thought after confessions of truth everything will just pass as if nothing happened. "Why am i so distracted?", I asked myself while playing a game in my phone. I got up and opened my pc and started talking to myself.

Sleeping beside the person I hardly knew at all is despicable. Is it too harsh? Okay I say, uncomfortable. Why such feeling? Is it jealousy or is it just a mere feeling of being betrayed by someone close to you? I was feeling fine after all the laughters and serious talk lately but when everybody else left, I felt everything was serious and I did not know how to place myself in the situation. More with the people around me who are mostly concerned. I was stuck. Words were trapped in my mind and they could not escape my mouth. How will I bring back again those times when everything was just normal. Yet I could not. And now I do not know how my loved ones took hold of the situation. I know they were just trying to hide the pain and frustrations. I can feel their anguish and dismay. I wish I could comfort them but I found no betters words or actions to make them feel better...

But then... it was still not the end. Everything was just a beginning.

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Shocked

I was busy working with our newsletter when at exactly 2:01PM, I received a message from a friend's friend explaining something which I really don't care at all. How would you react to something that is beyond your control? I mean, this friend of mine has his life and I don't care if he messes it up. It's his. It happened a week ago but it became a big issue in their community today. I was shocked when I received the message. I was emotionally disturbed.

Then here comes his friend explaining his friend's side that I misunderstood his personality. That I misunderstood everything that night. I immediately responded with both tone of sophistication and respect that I do not care who he meets with. Mean but nice. I ignored all the messages but replied once. His friend says he was reprimanded and they talked with their elder brother the whole afternoon. Since then I haven’t received any messages. I still hope everything would come out ok. Haaaay….


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