Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Ambush Attack

I went to an institution named after a saint with initials FX somewhere in a remote area at the South, sending a communication from our office inviting them to attend a meeting and participate in a competition we will be hosting. Our driver drove me to that place bringing with me a brown envelope which contains all communication letters. We do not know where the place is so we stopped when we saw a nearby neighborhood and asked for the location. The person told us to go straight ahead the hill, pointing with his hand the direction which we saw instantly. We followed the man’s direction and there we saw a castle-like infrastructure.

I entered a thorny garden going to a stair which I perceived has 20 steps before reaching the first floor. The interior was not attractive as it was seen outside. I was inside a gigantic nipa hut. All were made of wood, and I mean coco lumber, which was ordinary. Three of the inhabitants were squatting on the floor. ‘What kind of institution is this?’, I asked myself. I approached a middle-aged woman who was standing and asked to meet their supervisor. I was assisted going up and waited for at least 5 minutes in a sofa three meters away from the door of the supervisor which was elevated with a three stair-steps. A nearly 4-foot woman came out. I hardly distinguished her dress that time. I stood up to greet her subsequently handing the communication letter. We talked on the sofa I was seating. After a few exchange of words, I rolled my eyes around the place and noticed men watching us. They were inhabitants too I guess, which to me seemed to be militants. I felt terrified but pretended it did not affect me. My friend texted me that he will come to fetch me. I was not able to answer him back Few conversations with the supervisor and off I went out.

I went out from a concrete parking area like that of a five star hotel in our city. I was not with my driver anymore. I was searching for my black Honda Civic car when my friend appeared smiling at me. I never thought he would actually come to the place. He came over and greeted me. We entered the car and I started the engine. The road was not cemented and the way was dusty. I drove nearly a hundred meters away and a man his late 30s was running beside my car and pointing a gun on us. I stepped to speed-up the car. We escaped but after a few meters more another gunmen were waiting to shoot us. My heart’s racing, beating faster, and faster. I could hardly breathe. Then I freeze.


I temporarily escaped death… I woke up! Goodness! That was just a dream…

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Monday, September 29, 2008

Her Other December

For long She discreetly protected her December. Everybody loves to be in this state, bliss. Everybody anticipates it with fervent desire of celebrating. It’s abundant. The coolness of the breeze signifies that it is coming.

Unfortunately, on its way, the natural rain turned into storms. Many places flood resulting to people in low area to evacuate. Local government built evacuation sites for them to shelter for the moment. Her family moved too. Then the storm passed. Many people went home but found their houses destroyed. Some things were washed away while some stayed. Too much destruction happened. It’s no longer the house they lived. They cannot do anything to change the effects of the calamity but to repair the damage and live in and with it. So they did. It cost them time, money and effort to build the house they once lived. Slowly, they once again had a house, though it was not the same, at least they had found home.

December is yet to come. Though she wishes to have the same December again, the storm has affected her desire of anticipating. She realized that actuality is better than anticipation.

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Taihen...

Just finish working. Gotta go home now. But first, gotta eat my dinner with my officemate. Haay.. taihen...

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Friday, September 26, 2008

She's Dead... again

When will tormenting moments end? She's dead again. How can I continue my routine if she's gone. When will she be in life again? My heart is filled with worries and pains. My PC is dead! She was attacked by a virus, no a trojan, or was it a malware? Damn I even don't have the sense to know the name. I made a greater damage to her. huhuhu... I need technical help on this! Gotta accomplish loads of task. *grieving*

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A Night with Jed

It was 11:43 in the evening and I was outside Grand Regal Hotel waiting for a taxi with my friends going home. Why were we there? We watched Jed Madela's concert. It was a mini-concert organized by PAGCOR monthly and September is for Jed. The concert was in Casino's Pantawan Hall. That was the first time I entered the Casino, they too I guess. I came with my officemate who sponsored seven of us on that concert (thanks for the dinner too! :D )

We arrived nearly 30mins before the starting time which was 9:00. As usual, there was front act to entertain the audience while the main show hasn’t started yet. Fifteen minutes later and our other friends came. Few minutes more and the lights were dimmed. Jed Madela came out from the back portion of the hall singing Hercules' OST "I Can Go The Distance" originally sung by Michael Bolton as the opening salvo. Many screamed with excitement as his voice seemed to came out from the deepest Marianas Trench. He was awesome. It was followed by songs in his albums which were all revivals. Photo and video taking were not allowed (as advised when we entered Casino; stickers were placed on cellphone lenses and digital cameras were surrendered on the counter) but that time people could not stop but remove the sticker and enthusiastically took photos and videos while on their seats. There was none the Casino staffs did to stop them so I did too hehe. Unfortunately, my phone could not get a good capture because it was dark and we were far so I just recorded his singing.

Evergreen was sung. The melody and the voice filled with so much emotion. I sank in the song. My heart stopped a moment and I found myself teary-eyed. Why was I feeling this way? What was I thinking? I wanted to pretend that the reason was not the one I was trying to hide and escape but it was. My heart started to feel fear and pain again. There were flashes of the past. I tried to recover... then I was back to where I was, sitting in the concert and listening to the music. Many songs followed, still from his albums. We were still filled with amazement of his voice.

For the First Time was sung. And although the song was for sweethearts, I do not know why my heart wept. Is it because I could not fit in the song or is it because if only we got the courage to express what we feel, we could have been in the song. But this is no drama. I woke up and listened to the songs again.

He played two medleys, one was from his favorite and iconic singers Martin Nievera, Lani Misalucha, Gary Valenciano, Sharon Cuneta, and Regine Velasquez (did I miss something?) and that of his dad’s favorite collections: Great Pretender, Unchained Melody, One Way Ticket, etc, ended by Voltes V’s OST which very much pleased the audience. His popular revival song entitled The Past was also sung and everybody did not cease applauding.

The audience were given time to request and he sang a few lines. The concert ended with the song Climb Every Mountain.

We seated until the hall fills a little empty and off we went to the stage with some other fans of Jed and took photo with him. I seem to master taking photos myself. Take a peek. ;)

The ticket we bought included a free play on the Casino’s slot machines. Five of us, no six, and I was the only rose among the thorns, played while my friend went home early with her husband. I do not understand why some got addicted playing the slot machines while I and the rest of the gang find it boring and nonsense. Well we all have differences. When we all have no tokens left in our hands, I was relieved. Finally, I would be able to go home. At the end of the game I then realized why. The thrill and excitement of hearing and seeing many tokens dropping off the machines answered it. Yet, gambling is not my life, afraid to bet with no assurances.

It was 11:43 in the evening… already…

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

The End of the "Eleven Minutes"

I cannot remember the exact time I finished Eleven Minutes today but for sure it was past five, I mean afternoon past five. I was supposed to finish it last night after I sent a text message to the owner promising him to complete it by night so I will have his Valkyries the next day. Fifty pages left yet I found myself already asleep with the book on my chest. T’was two in the morning then. I could not comprehend anymore. I could not resist my body’s eagerness to sleep. So I did.

Twelve pages left but it was already one in the afternoon. I must get back to work. So excited to finish it, I immediately read it once the clock struck 5. The novel like all other Paolo's works was splendid! It touched my heart. This was a story of love, dream and purpose in life.



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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Somebody Loves My Blog

Thanks to my friend Chai for this very kind message.

And now, I want to say this also to my fellow bloggers.




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Just transcribing...

Take me down but take it easy.
Make me think but don't deceive me.
Torture me by taking your time...


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Monday, September 22, 2008

Maria's Diary

Everything tells me that i am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say "yes" to life?

The little experience of life I've had has taught me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion - and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever (as has happened often enough to me already) finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there's no point wasting my time looking after things that aren't mine; it's best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.
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Saturday, September 20, 2008

Always keep a tangible memory

No matter how painful an experience is, always keep a tangible memory. Years after, looking on the stuffs, you will laugh and realize how stupid and shallow you are those times. Standing in the present will let you see how you've grown wiser and tougher because of those past events.

Back to the years I have lived in happiness and pain, the stuffs I had those times were still with me. Looking at them made me laugh how I have been too childish, too stupid and too engrossed with my emotions. I was really young then. This time, I don't want to forget whatever I had and have. Everything must be captured. Everything must be saved. Everything must still be seen in the future. Keeping them will measure how far have I grown to be matured in the next years to come. Looking at them makes me feel lighter... better...

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Friday, September 19, 2008

Turning Blue to Yellow

Yellow is the color of sunshine. This color is optimistic, upbeat, modern. The energy of yellow can become overwhelming. Therefore yellow is not a color that tends to dominate fashion for long periods of time.

It seems like I have been very expensive this past few days. (I’m running out of budget but worthy anyway) Thea and I met again and had coffee. This time, we were with Ms. Nelia, our very enthusiastic secretary during our ITE years (but of course, she’s still enthusiastic even if she’s not with ITE anymore) We visited our alma mater yesterday wanting to meet the people who molded us as individuals worthy in society. (wooh that sounds a little scary hahaha) But kidding aside, we were very glad we were able to meet them. We had a nice conversation with Sir Yamit, Sir Jerry, and Sir Ex. We were like table-hopping at the faculty room exchanging and extending our greetings and few stories with each other. Time was so short that we have invited Ms. Nel to have chitchats with us. So we met lately.

The coffee and service at Yellow Hauz seemed to improve this time. I have not appreciated them the last two visits I had but this time it did catch me. I asked the lady at the counter their house coffee and she introduced me the Café White Mocha. It was sellable she said. My tastebuds loved it. Conversation followed.

Unlocking one’s suppressions to a friend lighten the burden. I am in my actualization process. I just needed someone to affirm with me so I will be guided in this process. I heard what I have to hear and I found what I have been searching. I am slowly moving toward the right direction. To not think too much. To expect nothing. To be plain living.

I am slowly turning the Blue to Yellow.

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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

To the Rhythm of the Music

Moving your body to the rhythm of the music (some realizations from Paolo Coehlo’s works while writing the blog on Jaded)

I never thought writing Jaded will help me understand Paolo Coehlo’s writings. My friend introduced this awesome, marvelous, laudable, incredible Brazilian author two months ago. He wrote about teachings and learnings in life. Never had I been too attached with a story but his was like an arrow pierced in my heart. It made me stop… then sigh… then cry.

I have read three of his books: The Zahir, The Witch of Portobello and Eleven Minutes (still reading). Aside from the essence of life’s journey which you will find in all his books, one thing is common and it made me wonder. Three of which talked about dancing to the rhythm of the music. I really wondered why the author wrote about dancing with your heart and soul. In Zahir, he met a group in a theater whose ritual was dancing. They danced to the beat of their drum. People come to their place to share about their lives and in turn get responses and advices from the group. In The Witch of Portobello, Athena introduced a dance to her officemates and anybody she meets that uplifts and enlivens their body and soul. She too danced to the beat of her music, flowing and dancing freely with her soul. The Eleven Minutes, with Maria a prostitute as its character, also has the attribute of dance.

Dance… rhythm… body… soul… these words made me realized Paolo Coelho’s rhetoric compositions: searching that which makes you happy and living with it. When one finally realized what will make him happy, the body and soul moves freely to that feeling. Gratis. It is like a petal flowing freely to the gush of the river. Smooth. Free. Boundless.

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Jaded

Playing one’s favorite song is never tiring. It motivates you. It moves you. You play it several times and you’ll never get jaded. But when it is solely played constantly, it will slowly wear you down, and then disgusts you later on. You will search for a new song that will fill you up. That will draw and move you. A song that will risen your spirits and move your body to its rhythm. Everybody feels this way, I know.

I have listened to one song playing all the time. It was not my favorite. Somebody just introduced it to me. I tried to listen. At first it did not catch my interest but constantly listening made me like it. (take note, like) Although it did not move me much, I was set to like it. So it goes, I played it and listened several times. Oftentimes I play it solely, sometimes with other songs. But then, some songs fade. Than being silent all the time, I chose to play and listen to it. Again, on and on.

Here I am, tired of listening to the same beat, same lyrics, same rhythm, same pattern. It exhausts me. I wanted to pause it for a moment, or even stop it. Yet, silence will kill me.

I'm sick. I'm tired. I wanted to screw up last night. But my screwing up was screwed up!

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Monday, September 15, 2008

Reaching for the Star

If the moon won’t let me chase him, will the star?

Since I was young, the star was more admired than the moon. (I don’t know with you) Why? Coz it’s brilliant and it twinkles. It catches the eyes of the young ones. (of the many, maybe) As far as I know, the star is farther than the moon. Reaching it won’t make sense, right? Yet I look up to it with reverence. But yeah, it won’t make any sense chasing it.

I remembered a dialogue between my two friends. We were in the office that night and they were talking. Don’t get me wrong. I didn’t mean to be eavesdropping but well, I heard them. Lol. Here it is.

Friend 1: “I’ll just buy cigarettes near the gas station”.
Friend 2: “No friendship. You buy at MarketBasket. It’s nearer.”
Friend 1: “What nearer? The gas station is nearer. Can’t you see it from here? You can peer in the window.”
Friend 2: “Why? Is the star nearer than Manila?”

Upon hearing the last argument, I can't help but applaud and laughed. I did not expect such answer. It was amazing where the answer came out. My other friend was silenced for 5 seconds finding the right reply that will counterfeit it. Yet, he sat down and say, "OK".

It made me ponder too. It does not mean that if a thing is visible, it is near. I am in Davao. The star is visible, yet it is far. Manila is not visible, yet it is nearer than the star.

IT is visible. Just an extend of my arms and I can reach IT, yet I cannot and IT won't.

I wanted to hear more arguments so that I will have the reason to believe that no matter how far a visible thing is, I can still reach it. Sometimes I think that it is better to chase the farthest visible thing than the nearer invisible thing because even how far it maybe, your eyes, your heart, and your goal is only moving toward that direction. If only I can settle with Manila, I will. Yet, it won't allow me too. What else will I be chasing if these two dump me?

How I wish I only receive valid answers and not true ones. For if it will be valid, I do not have to believe on the real ones. Damn. I am stuck again. *sigh!

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Friday, September 12, 2008

Propagating Friendship Award



I love the blogs of these people and I'm glad to pass this award onto them! All they need to do is to leave the following message on their post when they pass the award on to their chosen eight bloggers (i only have 3 sorry).

They all are charmed with the blogs, where in the majority of its aims are to show the marvels and to do friendship; there are persons who are not interested when we give them a prize and then they help to cut these bows; do we want that they are cut or that they propagate? Then let's try to give more attention to them! So with this prize we must deliver it to 8 bloggers (lit 3 lng ako ha sori tsk tsk)that in turn must make the same thing and put this.

Thank you so much Molit for sharing this award. God Bless!

I'm passing this award to my fellow bloggers and friends Chet, Thea, and Vinkoy.

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Thursday, September 11, 2008

The Tale of the Moon

Have you ever wondered why the moon constantly walks with you wherever you go? (do an outdoor walk at night) No matter how you wanted to walk toward and reach it, the distance is still the same. It’s constant. It’s far. I have often thought reaching it but I could not. I just faked by closing one eye, extending my right hand and then grasping it like it was in my hand. Such a childish act, isn’t it? But then I realized, I could not and would never reach it (unless I go space travel with NASA, but of course, that would be very expensive. Again, impossible.)

Sometimes I thought, “What if the moon will come to me so I won’t be running after it?” Damn! A worse impossible thinking. Does it mean I’ll stop chasing the moon then?

A friend says I should not be chasing something that is impossible to reach. That I will only be putting burden on my shoulders. That I will only be wounding myself. That I will only be killing my hope. That everything I have saved for myself will be lost. I have often thought of that long ago but my stubbornness sometimes lead me back to reaching it again. But now it seems I would be heeding that friend’s advice. I wanted to take risks but if I continue to chase that thing and won’t let me chase it, I better stop. If time and destiny won’t allow me have it, then I won’t oppose.

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

I missed my flight!

Wooh! I missed my flight! It has been past a month now and I forgot I had a flight. I was not advised when would my final schedule be. I think I already missed it. Too bad I would not be flying high. :( Daijoubu... I still have lots of flights to book. The problem is, are there available slots for me? *sigh!

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Saying Farewell

I was supposed to have coffee with a good friend tonight but because of a visit it was postponed. I then remembered Nori. He will be leaving tomorrow for Japan so as a sign of gratitude I wanted to treat him a dinner and a coffee. He is a favorite of the office. A very nice gentleman. I told Ate Ellen so the three of us can have coffee. I was supposed to treat him but it was the other way around. He said we'll treat him next time. (日本 で? たかい でしょう。 いらない lol ) It will be long before we'll meet again. We stayed for 2 hours in the coffeeshop chatting. My friend whom I was supposed to have coffee was there too but with different company.

We went back to the office after our coffeebreak. It was already 8 in the evening when we got back. I was so full that I drank three mugs of green tea in the office. We said farewell to Nori and thanked him for staying with us. The PNJK family will miss him so much. とても! さようなら!

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Watashi no kasa desu. Bow!

It rained hard last night that I had difficulty going home from the office. I appreciated the umbrella given to me. I was not messed up because it has a case to avoid me getting wet after keeping it. I slept early coz I felt too dizzy from the office. This my umbrella. :)


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Monday, September 08, 2008

I give up!

Haay... I give up! but for tonight only. I was not able to run the site I wanted to build. I have no knowledge of css and it's already killing my patience. I give up for now but tomorrow I'll start over again. I hope I can successfully run the code from scratch. My rusty brain needs some cleaning. Read more...

Saturday, September 06, 2008

In the Shadow of a Doomed Heart

Since this week seemed to be a sad week mode, I will add another emotional composition from a very good friend of mine. This was written in 2006.

I am still locked in this chain of depression. I have been waking up everyday with so much to worry of. I am weak for days trying to overcome this intense feeling of agony, of anger, of hope, of love… I thought after crying a pail of tears I could forget the pain and continue living as if nothing happened. I was wrong… All these days, I have been living in the shadow of pretensions I cast not wanting anybody to know that deep inside I am frail and fragile. That I am broke. I struggled to conceal this feeling, suppress them, and taught myself to be strong but I am still defeated with what I really feel. The past is drowning me to a river of pain and I am catching my breath to live. My heart is bleeding. The wound is deep and it’s killing me. How can this heart be mended? Tell me coz I hate what I feel!

Every dawn, I wake in misery. I slept with difficulty. My body and soul has not found
peace for so long. I often feel my heart crushed. Burnt. My mind is filled with so many flashes of the past. I saw him. Happy moments… Then sad ones… I thought after all the sacrifices I made he would realize and see that all I did was for the best of both of us, yet he did not. Instead, I was thrown away like a paper crushed by hand. I felt a cut in my heart and its bleeding. I came to think, “Where have I gone wrong?”

I want him to be happy. I had always prayed for his happiness. And now that he found it, I don’t understand why I still feel this way. It caused me so much pain. So much… I don’t know how would I bring back the color that love has once shared. All I see is the dullness of this heart. This pain had took away my life and my love.

My soul is wandering in oblivion. For long, I have searched for it but still could not find it. My heart was unguarded from the thorns that love has bore. My innocent heart had faced turbulence because of this insolent love I felt.

To see his face I cannot dare. To look in his eyes I cannot bare. My heart is throbbing and I do not know when this ends. To be numb is what I desire so I will no longer suffer in this foolish love that pierced my heart. Let alone time heal the wounds it caused. For in time, I will take back my heart and tell her how to love again. Please tell me, soonest…


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Reprimand Day

I was not actually reprimanded. I was the one reprimanding. My brother did not come home last nightmaking us worried the whole day. We cannot reach him by phone as he intentionally switched it off. When I finally got to call him this afternoon, I told him to fetch me in the office so we can talk. I treat him at my fave coffeeshop to make him feel relaxed as he will be bombarded with some teachings (hehe). I advised him to let us know where he is heading so we will know his condition. I did not reprimand him actually, I just talked to him so the next time he will leave the house, we'll know his location. He's the only brother I have so I must take care of him. He may be naughty sometimes but I still care for him.

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Got my refund for Nihongo!

Yipee! I passed my Nihongo quiz again! Another refund. hehe. Though I wanted to make it perfect, I always forget one character. Damn, next time I would tattoo the ら on my palm so I'll remember. hehe But not bad at all. At least I got my refund for the quiz fee.

Jaa,
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I Miss You So Much



"I Miss You So Much"
by TLC

I never asked for this feeling
I never thought I would fall
I never knew how I felt
Till the day you were gone
I was lost
I never asked for red roses
I wasn't looking for love
Somehow I let my emotions take hold
And guess what all at once
I'm in love

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Oh I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cause my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?

Why did I act like you mattered
It was silly of me to believe
That if I just opened my heart
Things would come naturally
Jokes on me (yeah)
I did not ask for love letters
So why did you give them to me
How could I let your intentions
Get hold over me
So in love
So naive (oh baby)

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And oh how I hate what you have done
Made me fall so deep in love
God knows
You're the only one I want
That I love oh baby

[Chorus]

Baby why aren't you missing me?
Baby why aren't you missing me?

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Friday, September 05, 2008

My first and last working day

My first and last working day of the week. Today is Friday and I was not able to extend my vacation until today because I have already set an appointment with shin nikkeijin application last month. I could not postpone it too because I wasn't able to get the contact number of the applicant. Too bad I have to start and end my work for a week in only one day.

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Thursday, September 04, 2008

My trip was postponed

Mati trip postponed. I have apprehensions we cannot go back the office by one in the afternoon so I decided last night that I won't go with them because I have interview in the afternoon by 2. And yes, they arrived in the office at 4 in the afternoon. Good thing I didn't bother go with them today.

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Change

Have I only got the courage to fly, I would have done it three years ago. All those times I have prayed that a little courage be showered upon me so I can change my life the way I wanted it to be, be it in career, family or love. A confidant once said I must be writing something to release my negativity. He knows well I cannot speak of my emotions vocally. So here I am writing again like I was three years back my life.

Where should I start my piece? I really do not know. All I know is that my heart is on fire. Not because of excitement but because of pain, fear, anxieties, and any emotional distress that swallow me.

I have always been a coward. Afraid that I would end up making the wrong decision; afraid that in the end I will fall; afraid that in the end I will get hurt. Sometimes I wished I was just like anybody else, ordinary, living worry-free. But I am not. Every decision is thought a million times. Every move is a planned event. One false move and I will fail. I do not want that to happen.

Sometimes I think that escaping from these problems and fears would deliberate me from life's agonies. Even just a short escape from reality would be fine. Yet I have not succeeded. One will always go back to its reality. And that pains me more knowing that I cannot escape the life I have. I must live with it and that’s a major challenge for me.

For just a short span of time, I thought I would find my self and my heart's home, yet I haven't. I have escaped a little and forgot the things that pain and worry me but reality again succumbs me to return to where I should be living. I realized that I cannot and will not escape them; my work, my family and... my heart.

(To be continued…)


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Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Something from Ally Mcbeal

My friend sent me this quote from Ally Mcbeal

Here's something from Ally McBeal that touched me and I want to share

If you see me walking the road with someone else, it's not because I like that person's company, it's because you were not brave enough to walk beside me...

If you hear me talking about that person all the time, it's not because that person pleases me, it's because you were deaf to hear my heartbeats...

If you feel me falling with someone new, it's not because I love that person, it's because you were not there to catch me as I fall... :(


My friend says that one better express what he/she feels before it goes to nothing. So sad...


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I'm back!

It's exactly 4:39 on my watch and now I am sitting infront of the house's pc. It's been a week I haven't keyed and clicked on this pc which I miss. (but of course, i miss more my pc in the office hehe) The travel time seemed short because I was with my officemates returning home (they have interviews in Gensan). Conversations make you not notice the time running. I have not dropped by the office as I felt tired to carry my bags in and out so I requested to go home ahead once the van was nearing the office.

This morning I have woke up early anticipating their arrival but ate ellen and I met at the coffeeshop late this morning as she too visited her relatives and I fell asleep while waiting for them. I managed to write my previous post in the coffeeshop as I was still apprehensive to go home. Though I have a choice to extend, I felt obliged to return. As always, going home means returning to the real world again. I have to face my work, everything and everyone who's anticipating my return. The van fetch us quarter to 12 noon and we took lunch somewhere affordable. I thought we will be eating at Grab-a-Crab that time. Too bad we didn't... haaay... Te Ellen, we'll just eat next time on our visit. When would that be I don't know :(

We came back to Davao near one o'clock in the afternoon and arrived nearly 3 hours after. Oh before I forget, they'll go to Mati tomorrow for another interview. I think I'll go too hehe. Gotta extend my vacation til Friday morning! Te Ellen, packed your things tonight and leave for Davao. Don't stay late in Digos. Ok?

Jaa,
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Haay... gotta go back to the real world!

Dear Diary,

This scares me again. Going back to the real world is scary! Hahaha. I want to extend my stay here but I have a schedule on Friday with shin nikkeijin so I got to go back to the office. I came here to distant from three factors yet I think I have not overcome them yet. I need another mindset to free me from this anxieties and boredom again. Hmmm.. what do you think would be the best thing to do? Yet I miss the people I have been in constant communication. I miss my bed, my pc, and my dresser too. Well I think these motivate me to go back though. hehe

Jaa,
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Monday, September 01, 2008

My Gensan Excursion

Dear Diary,

Tis my first day of relaxing from work. Since I have focused my attention to work lately, I think I deserve a little break (am I?) Well, I have traveled with my sister yesterday late in the afternoon to Gensan after cleaning our room, which according to mom is a dirt room (bodega in short). I exhausted myself again but that's ok.

So, to continue, my elder sister and I approached the terminal by 5:00 yesterday afternoon. I was texting a friend that time as he was bored all day. Coincidentally, he too was approaching the terminal. I thought he will be fetching a friend but he was traveling too like me. So we rode together. I had a fruitful journey then. As usual we were talking stuffs about life and love. He left when we arrived in Digos so I had to transfer seat next to my sister. We arrived in Gensan at around 8:13 in the evening with our stomachs growling for food. I slept after an hour as the journey was tiring.

Today, September 1, my sister left me early for office. I stayed in the house whole morning just lying on bed. I napped a little but woke up everytime my phone beeps for messages. I went to the mall to take lunch and then meet my good friend Hery where we had coffee and talk whole afternoon. She invited me to dinner in her house where her Malaysian housemate cooked for us. I wonder how Malaysians cook as it took him more than an hour to prepare the food. At around 8:30 we went to the newest coffeeshop in town, the Coffee Club 101. I am actually using their pc now. Two units are used for free. It reminds me of my pc in the office. I miss her. haaay... So I think I have to leave for now. Gotta have chitchats with my friend here. Tomorrow she'll tour me at Sarangani Highlands! Yipee!!! So excited! I'll post pix next time. ;)


Jaa,
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